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Stay at home mom, shmay at shome shmom

I have had the blessing and the curse of being a stay at home mom for nearly three years now. Partially due to our decision to have a second child, a little due to Lily's sometimes complicated medical needs, and largely due to my inability to work in traditional work environments because of my hearing problem I have not had employment since October 29, 2009. I don't know who said "it was the best of times and the worst of times" or if anyone said that but it fits my experience. From the start of motherhood I had so much guilt about going to work. I returned to work 6 weeks after my first daughter was born and was plagued daily with guilt and with a paranoia that "everyone" was judging me for working instead of staying home and that I had somehow failed in life to not be in the position to stay at home. I also had this looming sense that I was going to regret squandering this time with my baby. I felt it doubtful that I would look back 10 years from now and...